October is brought to you by the emotion “stress”
october brings with it too many things to think about, worry about, forget about, remember - and just as many people to connect with for various reasons and at various costs.
october means PRESSUREPRESSUREPRESSUREPRESSURE so much weighing me dowwwwnnnnnn
it means complaining on your blog to all the people who probably have the right to say “you dont know the meaning of stress!”
stress about work - everyday sales goals, dont get paid enough, no one to cover my shifts, getting scheduled on days when i’m not available, finding a new job closer to home, that interview next week, need to buy more work clothes
stress about school - never enough time to study, tests are mostly online, one of my teachers doesnt know how to teach, getting good grades, applying to schools properly and on time, making counselor appointments, parking permits, no water fountain at NOC (dont ask)
stress about homelife- pressure to help out around the house more, helping lori with her wedding and everything that goes with it, setting up for the party, need a car but we cant afford one, fear of mom’s cat shitting in my bed room
stress about you - mh that’s more of a self imposed pressure. but some of this stress is really stupid, more just anxiousness, impatience
stress about me - need to fix that
stress about friends - am i making enough time for them? do i even have enough time to devote to them? not the time that they deserve, and doing a half assed job is just as bad as not trying at all.
stress about health - feel guilty when i eat junk food, want to exercise more, obviously irregular sleep pattern is obviously irregular
stress about wasting my life - should i really be wasting my “youth”? i could be out exploring! i’m unanchored, i’m free! what better time to take advantage of this opportunity than now you crazy girl!?!?! but no no no i never do anything exciting or spontaneous. stress isn’t the right word i guess, just dissatisfaction or disappointment.
stress about stress - being stressed out makes me worried about being stressed out. WHY WHAT??!?!
stress about you -oh no not this again
i know anxiety is common and natural, but it seems like my nerves are being seriously over-pressed lately and usually it doesn’t bother me because my method of dealing with stress is not giving a damn so that if things don’t go my way i can say it didn’t matter anyway and it wasn’t my fault. but if i don’t want to fuck myself over for years to come that type of coping will not fly anymore.
why does having a brain suck so hard
october is overwhelming this year.
november will seem like a blessing when it comes around
please get here soon.
i will probably delete this when i’m feeling better. ;\
wow lace, I feel a lot less alone now. I have some serious issues with stress